Christmas is fast approaching and I truly do not like all the craze connected with the preparations for the holiday celebrations, especially now, that I do not necessarily have the energy to be involved in all the hustle and bustle. Fortunately, friends of mine have invited me and my kids to join them in their Christmas dinner. We have spent a few Christmases with them before and it is always a good time. The boys will surely love it. In the meantime, I am facing the second stage of the cancer battle and that is lumpectomy, which will take place this week, if all goes well. I can’t say I am looking forward to the procedure, but it has to be done, so I am trying not to think about it and it is rather easy as there are so many things I have to do and so little strength that all the time I have seems too little to fill all the forms I need to fill, help the boys get ready for their Christmas concerts and other festivities.
Today is Sunday and I have been overcome with the fatigue and I spent much of the day sleeping, as the kids were kind enough to be playing nicely. I then was drawn to a blog by a cancer sufferer and reading it I realized how lonely my own road has been. I am wondering if it is to do with the country I live in, or the way I am, or whatever else…. Even this blog doesn’t seem to be attracting any attention, BUT hey, I am not going to be intimidated by this 🙂 It is a part of this dark valley I am walking through and I am happy I have had a friend or two who have faithfully accompanied me through it. I have learnt a very valuable lesson that it is far easier to support a cancer charity than someone who is battling the battle – it is convenient to be doing good but from a comfortable distance where the ugliness of this horrible sickness is not so obvious, where we do not see the pain behind the smiles and brave attitude. It doesn’t take a lot to encourage someone who’s battling a life battle with such an aggressive intruder – making a dinner, taking kids for a few hours, email or text every now and then; doing shopping for the person, helping them to keep the house clean. All it takes is find a bit of time to be with the cancer sufferer in a practical sort of way….. 🙂 I know I will surely be more sensitive after this experience, especially that I have not experienced much of this kind of practical help. Still, I am glad to be alive and I know a great Power is behind it. God’s the One that has been holding me in it and through it.
This week, I will spend at least two days in hospital as the lumpectomy will be performed under the general anaesthetic. The greatly shrunk lump will be removed with some margin of flesh around and a few lymph nodes will be removed for biopsy… How exciting!!! 😉
I shall play a classic hit to myself and believe I will do well and come out of this victorious: